Sometimes after I wake up with a huge hangover, I wonder why I drink. The answer is really unclear. I have been an alcoholic since I have been in my 20’s, and I wonder if this makes me a bad person.
At times, I feel like it does, and then other times I feel like it doesn’t. I guess the presumption is IF I even have these feelings, then maybe I AM a bad person. Like anyone, I have done things that I am not proud of doing. Usually, I have been under the influence when I did them. OK, I was drunk.
Funny enough, my therapist says that I THINK too much and that I shouldn’t worry about such things. She reminds me that I do donate my time and money to others, so, I should feel good about myself. She DOES however tell me that I am young and should STOP drinking.
While I realize that she is right, I just don’t WANT to. Dot and I have the best time getting drunk together. Anyway, I am straying from the point, am I a bad person because I am a drunk?
I think what I will do is have a few more Vodka and Cranberry’s and ponder this a bit further. Perhaps being drunk will help add perspective to my quandary. Please feel free to jump in and offer your opinion if you have one. I would love to hear someone else’s thoughts concerning my dilemma. Stay safe and wash your hands till they bleed.