Sooz’s Diary

Dear Diary:

As I write these words I am curious to that of Human Nature. Some people see me as a former captain of industry, and now a student redefining her life, others, see me as a drunken whore and a woman without conscience.

It’s almost as if I have two separate personalities, and yet, I am merely a woman, nothing more and nothing less. Yes, I have faults and talents like the rest of Humanity, and yes, my feelings can be hurt, and believe it or not, cut me and I bleed just like you do.

Why is it that MANY want my persona to be the drunk and sexual Nymphomaniac? Is it because I am easy after I am drunk, and they can just have their way with me? Helene, perhaps I should send a letter to Just Ask Sooz and find out.

The truth is I AM an alcoholic who IS a Nymphomaniac. I have had my ups and downs with the alcohol, but my sexual response is one in which I have never been able to quell.

Does this mean I don’t have a conscience…NO. I DO have a conscience, one in which I wrestle with each and every day. Why, because it is BECAUSE of my increased sexual arousal that I have created many unhappy people.

If there is a Hell will I burn there for eternity, I HOPE not, and yet, I still can’t seem to control my urges. Should I be doomed for something that is incurable? I don’t know, I wonder about these things a lot.

All this worry is probably just for naught however. If there is a final judgement, I guess I’ll just have to wait and find out the fate that surrounds me. If there is NO final judgement, then I guess I won’t have to worry about these matters.

I guess the best thing I can do is to live my life the best way I know how, and help those who are less fortunate than I am. This way I can at least hedge my bets… Hehehehe.

Until Later Diary…

 

 

I Had a Dream

Call it what you want, a dream, a prophesy, an In- site, but I indeed had a disturbing nightmare regarding the presidency of our current leadership.

While it is true that I believe our economy will be strengthened under his leadership, I also believe his foreign policy will bring us to the brink of another world war.

Many of our allies are already dumbfounded at some of his new policy. Government cuts in foreign aid, including military abroad, and also in necessary food items, have our best friends scratching their heads.

Take THAT, with the increasing of our military spending, and well, this can lead to a significant build up in Russia’s defense, China’s, and also countries in the volatile Middle East.

Could I be full of *%^*, sure, but once this all begins, it will be very hard to reverse the trend. Am I saying we should all start rebuilding our bomb shelters once again, hey, it couldn’t hurt.

I truly fear for our country, while Trump is doing what he feels is right, I am afraid he is listening too much to his military advisors and not enough to others around him who can see the BIG picture.

My judgement, (and many more like me), rebuild the economy, and leave the military spending where it is. People will appreciate food and clean water MUCH more than sub machine guns. Just my two cents worth.

Until Later…

 

 

 

Valentine’s Day

Today is Valentine’s Day, and I would like to wish ALL of you a Happy Valentine’s Day. For many, this day is a celebration of love that two people have for each other, for others, it merely becomes a lonely reminder of what we once had, or a realization that we are still alone and may never experience that great gift.

For those of you of the latter, I will share with you some advice. First off, be true to YOURSELF. While you might not have a man or woman to share your vast love, remember that YOU are number one and can have anything you want as long as you fight hard enough for it.

If you truly want love to happen, it will, be yourself, put a little more UMPH in your walk, and wear a big smile across your face. If you are always friendly towards others, eventually you will find Mr. or MS. Right.

Go out, join a gym, or take a dance class, Mr. /Ms. Right are OUT there, you just have to connect with them. If you sit in your home, NOTHING will happen, join the world and experience all that life has to give.

For those of you who are lucky enough to have FOUND your partner, I say Celebrate to the fullest and let each other know that they’re your soulmate, and that you love them dearly.

Happy Valentine’s Day everyone, I’ll be thinking of you…

Until Later…

 

 

Trump, Money, and Pussy Power

Donald Trump is a misogynistic sex mongering pig. Oops, was that TOO harsh a statement? I mean I don’t want my taxes audited, or perhaps midnight visits by dark colored minivans outside my door now do I?

I’m sorry folks, for ANYONE to say what he did (In the locker room) about women was just wrong. QI TOO am rich and have a great deal of influence, HOWEVER, I would no more grab your privates than I would for a venomous cocktail.

To ME, it takes a degenerate to not actually SAY something like that, but ACTUALLY DO IT, because he feels entitled based on his power and money. Where has the sanity gone people?

At least when the other presidents had affairs, they did it WITHOUT the News cameras staring. This guy WANTS to let folks know that he has no working morals, and that he can just say, or DO, whatever the Hell he wants.

I for one am appalled and chagrined at his actions. It was bad enough when he was on the campaign trail, now that he is the leader of our free world, I am just saddened.

Come on Mr. President; get your head in the game, and out of my pussy.  

Shades of Hell

As I sit here by the banks of the river Styx, I peer out into the cold and empty darkness.

Fear fills my body, and the sadness from a thousand lifetimes sift through my brain.

I am alone; waiting for the inevitable finality, my conscience must be examined.

 

Woe to those who have the curse of breasts, pleasant to the sight, and tempting to the touch.

Few have seen without being condemned to its pleasures of lascivious gesture. Many have I called, but only a few have ignored my siren’s cry.

Woe again to those who have felt my passion, and have become a pinnacle of Lust’s desire; within my womb, there lays a contemptuous fire, ignited by the curse of my heated loins, tempting both men and women into my Devil’s cavern.

I pray that Hades will judge me NOT by his pitchfork of revenge, but by the actions I have done worth the merit of forgiveness. Seek Yee not shall I ask for his forgiveness, only the mercy he commands necessary.

 

Time

Interestingly enough, I find myself  looking back at my life and examining all the things I have done, both good and bad. Time is something that none of us have control over, nor do we KNOW for certain how long we each have on this wonderful planet.

Whether you believe in a higher power or not, what matters IS how can we make the most of our short stay here, and can we somehow better ourselves, and our fellow man?

Time is something that has always been in the forefront of my mind in some way or another. Do I have enough time to complete that project, IS there enough time to get and accomplish all of my goals, and is it possible to extend time somehow?

The truth is, NO one knows, that is why we should live each day like it is our last. Be good to one another, help those in need if you can, and probably most important, be compassionate and forgiving. Way too much of our precious time here is wasted on silly things like anger, frustration, and greed.

Live for today, let GO of any anger you may have brewing within you, you will not only feel better, but you will LIVE longer. People NEED forgiveness…Forgive them and rebuild the love for your fellow man.

Remember, the path to righteousness starts with YOU. Spend what time you have here being happy and helping others, if you DO, your time will have been well spent.

Happy New Year!!!

 

 

Sometimes ya Just Need to Talk to Yourself

Before we start out, let me just point out for all you grammar nerds out there, I realize I should have put in You instead of ya in the title. This, however, is NOT what I wanted so Ooooooh.

How many of you out there talk to YOURSELF? HELLOOOO!!!! Is anybody out there??? Let me just say this, I KNOW who you are, and if I am being honest, I ALSO will admit talking to myself.

Does that make you CRAZY, maybe, but in many instances I believe it helps  focus the mind. If I am trying to figure something out as an example, you will always find me in my kitchen talking vigorously to myself about what I should do.

Several times I have come up with a solution by doing this. Now, does that make me crazy, well, I guess that is really a matter of opinion. I mean it’s not like I talk to an imaginary friend, I am talking to a bright, well liked person who can help…ME!!!

If you say you DON’T talk to yourself on occasion, then you ARE crazy. That’s Sooz’s philosophy anyway. “There Dr. Freud, I said it out loud”. Now you can go and write me up in your medical journal of crazy behaviors.

I could go on an on about this subject, but right now, I have to have a little talk with myself about something.

Until Later…

 

Public Service Announcement

For those of you who did NOT want Donald Trump to be our President, let me just say this. Politics is politics. I’m sure in the REAL world, he rides Unicorns to work, and watches RAINBOWS on a daily basis somewhere in the world.

I’m sure he is GREAT with women, is NOT at all egotistical, nor is he a Misogamist PIG. These were all POLITICAL renderings of the man, people. I say, let’s do what we can with what we have.

He IS the President of our great Nation now, and for those of us who didn’t agree with his policies, well, ‘tough titty’ as Donald might say. We have to pull up our big girl and boy panties now and hate him ‘quietly’.

After all, he IS the President now, and could lock us away for a long time if we should EVER disagree with him. So,  you’re OK in MY book Mr. President. Now, what could we do to quickly impeach him???

ANYONE???

 

What Ever Happened to Flashing and Streaking

Hi everybody, let me just say this, I have been both a flasher AND a streaker. I know that must surprise most of you, but it’s true. When I was in college, the FIRST time, I would wait for the band to come out on the football field and then streak across like there was no tomorrow.

Was I ever caught, lets just say ONLY when I wanted to be. The same went for flashin’, at a concert or if I saw a really cute guy, I would give my coyesh smile and let him get a sneak preview of what COULD be.

Unfortunately, you don’t see that as often as you used to…Why? Nothin’ more excitin’ than a naked girl runnin’ in front of thousands of people, or givin’ a little flash to the gal/guy of your dreams.

First of all, let me ask YOU folks in the peanut gallery, would YOU like a little more excitement in your lives? I certainly would. I may just bring back my old college days again this football season, and maybe I’ll even do a flash or two. Look out you old Profs, Sooz is comin’.

Let’s “Bring Back the Fun to America Again”…Whose WITH me?

 

 

 

School Time for Sooz

Hi everyone, I am writing in between classes and I thought I would give you an inside view of my new life. School has begun and I already have all of my books. Wow, speaking of books, I couldn’t believe the cost of text books these days. These Professors, get rich from their students BUYING their books alone, to say nothing about actually teaching the classes.

I am settling in well and have already gotten my first crush on one of the Profs. What a cutie she is…Blond hair, beautiful bod. and a killer smile…I can see I MAY need some EXTRA help in THAT class.

I am up at the crack of dawn; primping, and making myself beautiful, so everyone will fawn over me. Is that a BAD thing, hehehehehe??? OK, so what, I AM a little vein, but I want to look GOOD don’t I?

Anyway, I have a class at 8:00AM and another one at 10:AM, then I go a few hours before taking one at 1PM, and my last one is at 3PM. Tomorrow, I have one of my favorite classes, The Study of the Criminal Mind. I am really looking forward to this class, maybe I’ll learn some interesting material.

College life is a little weird for me being in my forties, they’re many students who that are in their late 20’s or early 30’s. Making friends, however, is NO problem. God, sometimes I feel like I could be their mother….NO CRACKS FROM THE PEANUT GALLERY PLEASE!!!!

Other than that, I am keeping a low profile, not going to the pubs, and dancing wildly on top of the tables naked…YET, anyway. I am being a “good girl”, studying hard, and working to get straight A’s. I wanna graduate Magna Cum Laude, and I can do it…Fingers crossed…

Until Later…