Heaven and Hell

 

Heaven

Oh Heavens gate,  may I lay upon thy pillowed clouds, and delight in serenity’s peace.

Let there be sweet repose for my resting soul, and harmony for a troubled mind.

For this shall be my eternity, earned through a shady past, yet forgiven by a merciful God.

It has been said, “Be thou at peace, and rejoice in Heavens glory, now and forever.”

 

Hell

Suffer now the consequences of life’s peril.

Be thee engulfed by the ever burning fires of Gehenna.

Feel the flames scorch and burn thy troubled soul,

And forever remember the misgivings that have caused thee this eternal suffering.

Where The Hell Has Sooz Been

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To answer the above question, I have been selling my firm to 10 of my business associates. Deal is finally closed, and so now I am among the unemployed. I gave them a great deal, they are very good workers and will carry on the business just as I did.

I am happy, but also sad because it closes a very successful part of my life. Now I must gather my wits together, and find a place to live off campus. Lots to do and really not that much time left to do it in. 

A new adventure though, and one that ultimately, I am very much looking forward to. Right now I am exhausted from all the dealings, but it’s finally over now. The next time I’ll be employed again, I will be a full fledged Psychologist. I am really looking forward to it.

Fingers crossed, but legs always open…Hehehehehehehehe….

Until Later…

 

 

 

Poetry by Sooz

Oh withered tree, I cry out from beneath your pillars of wood, a lonely song.

I was a man,  a husband, father and a patriot.

Dutifully resigned by sworn oath,

To serve,  protect and defend my country.

 

Going to war, many times I realized not only its savage fury,

But the pointlessness of killing my fellow man,

For the sake of an ideology,

Or the consumption of power.

 

I rest now, hit by insanities bullet,

I lie beneath this oak,

My thoughts remain,

Yet, with hurt feelings of being forsaken by others.

 

Remember, I am the reason today’s freedom rings on.

Celebrate MY sacrifice,

Through the remembrance of of my fellow brethren,

And perhaps a prayer, to renew MY faith, and for an end to ALL conflict.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Memorial Day Tribute

While I was never in the armed forces, like all Americans, I have ALWAYS been proud of the job they do to keep our country free. They work long hours, sometimes in extreme temperatures both hot and cold, to make sure that our God given freedoms are protected.

I personally know several men and women, as I’m sure you do also, who have left their loved ones to go and fight in either Afghanistan, or Iraq. Can you imagine how hard that must be?

 For many Americans, it only becomes a small part of our lives when we see the bloodshed, and the ravages of war when posted on TV. Many others celebrate without a thought while enjoying  picnics, family gatherings, or just in house Bar-B-Q’s.

People, let us NOT forget what this day celebrates. We SHOULD be honoring the memories of these brave souls who have given THEIR lives, to protect ours. Let me say that I am not only PROUD to be an American, I am also GRATEFUL for the service those brave men and women have given us.

May your soul and the souls of your families be at peace, and may God’s mercy and light shine upon you now, and for all eternity. I salute you.

 

The Winds of Change

 

The winds of change are blowing as we drift along  a stormy sea.
Many have heard them, but few have listened. 
Quiet contentment lays dormant at our feet, yet, uneasy waters stir.
Blind ambition fills our lives and wreaks havoc with our very souls.

Woe is he who has tasted the supper of life’s temptations,
for he is but a shadow of a lasting soul.
Blessed is he who has the gift of patience,
For he is the bearer of eternal peace.

Heed the winds of change, embrace their fury,
And forever be subject to their domain.
Time’s law can not be broken,
Yet those who bear witness, survive.

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Nature VS Real Life

While working today, YES, I actually DO work, I noticed something unusual as I was looking out of my office window. I noticed two squirrels running up and then down the tree. Curious as to what they were up to, I got out my SPY ware and checked in on them at about 2000 magnification. OK, I really don’t KNOW what the magnification really was, but that’s beside the point.

What I discovered was, they were gathering up what looked like nuts, and then ran back up the tree again. I assume they had a nest there and were storing up for more desperate times. Interesting really, just sitting and watching Nature at work, it gives me a sense of peace.

Watching them, brought a sense of urgency regarding selling my business, and getting ready to start school in the fall. The business is already listed, but I THINK I am going to sell it to ten of my employees who have already come to me and expressed an interest. I am in no rush for a cash deal so I would let them rent with an option to buy the property and the business.

Thinking about this new venture brings a sadness, one in which I am relinquishing control, and the other, not KNOWING what the future will hold. I have been in charge for so long now, it might be difficult for me to relinquish the reins and start anew.

I DO have high hopes for school though, and in a way, I am looking forward to the future.  I guess I’ll just have to dive into the unknown and hope for the best. Damn, why did I EVER start watching those damn squirrels?

Mother’s Day Rememberence

 

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Dear Mom:

A few years have passed now since you left me and I must say, I think about you often. While my teen years were filled with anger and tears, I try and remember the good times before daddy died.

I remember us as a family, going to the park, packing a picnic lunch, and while you and dad made goo goo eyes at each other, I would be swinging,  or sliding down the slide which seemed like an eternity.

It seems like only yesterday that you would cuddle me in your arms to say, “Remember the good times always princess”. We were happy then and I so long for those forgotten memories.

As a teen, I really didn’t understand what was going on. Oh sure, I realized that you were hurting from the loss of daddy, but I never truly understood how YOU felt that fateful day, YOU died also.

Now, as an adult, making my OWN mistakes, and in one instance, followed YOUR lead into alcoholism, I understand completely what drove you to your destruction.

I want you to know that I forgive you for all of those bad years growing up, and that I truly did, and DO love you. I sincerely hope you are happy where ever you are and if there IS a Heaven, I pray that God shine His light upon you.

I also ask for YOUR forgiveness mom, I hated you for years, and that hate, was unduly justified. I am guilt ridden because of those feelings, and I try each day to somehow make up for my transgressions.

I realize this is just a letter mom, but, my feelings stand true. You were a beautiful and loving mother for many years, and it is THOSE years and memories I shall carry to my grave.

God Love You…

Your Princess

 

 

 

Prayer For Insight

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Dear Supreme Being, open my heart and enhance it with thy love.

Fill my soul with thy grace, and allow me to envision thy spirit.

Fold me into thy glory, and allow the blindness which clouds my minds eye to see.

Let me rise upon thy kingdom, and grant me the wisdom I so desperately seek.

 

Though, let it not be MY will, but thine be done.

I pray thee to listen to my plea, and to answer in kind.

Amen.

Transcendence–A Wanderer’s Prayer–

Transcendence


DriftingMy soul doth wonder.
Never knowing what is to be, or not to be.
Is the story of THE Light, Truth,
Or, just an Ode from a tune played among the Ancients.

I seek thee thy wisdom oh keeper of the masses.
Grant that thine eyes be restored,
And my mind renewed through the power of thy Grace,
Grant me this oh Heavenly Hosts,
Let me FEEL thy love, feed my quest, and restore my wisdom.